When we load up a van this time around, I'm fairly certain it will be something like my thirtieth move since birth. You'd think I'd therefore be one of those old pros with super streamlined belongings who can pack and go at a moment's notice, but alas, no. I married a pack rat, and we like to do such a vast variety of outdoor activities that our gear alone merits it's own little U-Haul. And I'm currently existing in that weird space where I know we are going somewhere, but I am not sure where yet. We looked at a tiny and charming place this last weekend where we would have had to jettison many of our belongings to fit inside. It was so charming that we actually spent the afternoon considering it, and as we sat eating quesadillas and pondering, I was mentally setting up a massive yard sale, sorting through our basement in my mind and tagging and pricing things as I went. Mental yard sales take a lot of energy, you know, and I was fairly exhausted by the end of the day. After sleeping on it, we realized that shoehorning our family into the place, no matter how adorable, was not a good plan; so what a phenomenal amount of wasted energy and concern on my part the day prior! I learned a good lesson about jumping ahead of myself in our planning, and am trying desperately to just live in the moment and plan things only as they actually happen in reality.
No matter the circumstances, there are few things more stressful than moving. Stepping into the unknown, finances, logistics, decisions, timing... is anyone good at taking these things in stride? I take comfort in a few things: faith that things will work out the way they should, the husband's unparalleled energy and superhuman ability to captain our moves and come out relatively unscathed (with the help of Advil, Gatorade, and Heineken), and the support of our family and friends around us which is certainly easing the way. Still, it is sometimes hard to keep the middle-of-the-night stress demons at bay. Thank you for your patience with me as I try to keep my inner logistics monster under control and get this move planned out. And if you are one of those rare people who knows how to pull off a move stress-free, please share your secrets... you have my utmost respect.
Wish me luck today. Mama's gonna need it.